Circling the drain again

I don't know. I really just don't know any more.
T's feeding therapist is apparently going to call back on Monday morning - I missed her call on Friday.

I'm going to ask for an appointment, going to get rid of the other two and get P to come too.

I'm persisting in the bottle versus cup fight. It was a battle the first time and he didn't drink much for a few days and then gave in. We're on day 2 of this round. He drank a grand total of 230mls all day. He also ate extremely little. He had 1 mouthful of dinner and basically didn't eat any breakfast. He hadn't eaten lunch or afternoon tea either. Hunger clearly doesn't register with this kid.

Interestingly, and sadly, with the reduced formula intake his behaviour, happiness and activity levels slid right back to where they had been pre-Poly Cal. So clearly the Poly Cal and his formula are the ONLY things actually keeping him on track and he can't afford to slow down on a drop. He really is formula dependent - at 3 years 5 months.

I just don't know how or when this is going to end.
He's clearly still in pain, we can't medicate any more than he is, and surgery's a no go for now.
Feeding therapy is going to be useless if it still hurts - and if we push it now when it does still hurt then when it doesn't he's not going to believe us.

P wants me to alternate bottles with cups as he has to get his formula. I think that's just going to prolong the battle and make it confusing for T. It has to be one or the other.
All the formula T drank yesterday was from his nap time bottle! So he hung out for that. Wretched child.

If I don't see an improvement tomorrow or his energy levels dip right out again then I'm going to give in I guess.
What else can I do?
This is a kid who, given free access to potato chips, feeds them to a dog rather than himself!
He gives you back a lollipop half eaten.
I can't feed him.

Just somtimes this whole thing gets me down. What kind of mother can't get her kid to eat or drink enough to survive healthily and thrive?

I know we'll get there in the end but it just seems to stretch out into never never land.